Got it edi!

Well,
Just when i decided to let go and not to think about it anymore.
It cames rite in front of my face.
Got the call edi.
They officially accepted me.
Really HAPPY and grateful.

1st of June will be my 1st day.
Wish me Luck, PPl...

I'm a Broadcasting Journalist again :D
Terima Kasut.

Test of Patient

I am all clear now. Very.
I stopped being depressed and tension.
Because i FINALLY understand it.

I knew that,
I did all my best to get it. And it's proven that i want it.
I gave just everything in order to get it. I started to give my best since I was an intern there. Coz i knew that this is what i want after i graduated.
So, i really gave my very best.
I did my part.
What i have not do now, is to wait patiently.

Suddenly i realize, that i was soooo anxious to get a job. I totally forgot that i just finished my study in like less than a month. So, what's with the rush?
Moreover, I did what i'm supposed to edi, sent in my resume and attended the interviews.
Yes, again..i forgot about the patient part.

I'm definately not rich,
but I won't die of starvation if i get a job later.
I am not rich,
but I do not need a job so badly to serve the table for my family too.
We are all doing fine.

AND most importantly,
I won't die if i dun get this job. I'll be sad though. But sad doesn't cause my life. That's for sure.
So, what's with the tension?

*Super thanks to Charlini for her endless supports and loves.
I'm truly sorry for being so stubborn.

I feel so light now. For once...after all.

Listen to the radio

When ur mood is down, u can't even get to hear any gud numbers from any of the radio channels. I've been's zip zapping almost all of the channels but yet i can't get any gud song.
Not even 1.
Yea, i am listening to my MP3 player now. At least there are gud songs of my own selection are definately available there. No doubt.
But i really enjoy the feeling, where i get to hear all the gud songs playing one after another in the radio. I like the kind of surprise where all those songs that u r expecting deep in ur heart were played randomly in the radio. Nicey rite?
I really missed that kind of surprise now.

I've been feeling like tis since a few days back. Very depressed.

Pigi Ipoh ...Ipoh Mali

So, i was willingly kena kidnapped by Tammy on the last 15th May to Ipoh (her hometown).
Wee!!! my first time to Ipoh.
Basically, I just eat...eat... and eat over there. And ironically, there isn't any picture on the foods at all here. It's all kept save and warm in my tummy *wink*

When we are at home (tammy's house), we did ntg much except playing with Safron aka Saffy.

*~SAFRON~*

I like Yook Hwa's expression. Haha...

Safron likes to kiss Yook Hwa a lot !

Yook Hwa and Tammy and the pussy dog

Yook Hwa and I

Aiyak! Safron tak nak tengok camera la ! :(

Naa... Tayang ekor ! berry Cute!!!

Then, we went to Hot Spring kat Tambun Lost World. That place looks like a mini Sunway Lagoon. Well, it's belongs to the Sunway Group memang lar... hehe

Bertiga-tiga

Posing in the kolan air panas. The panas is not alang2 one.. i tell u.

Badan oso merah2 edi... I respect those orang can rendam there for so long *tabik*

Za, me and Yook Hwa

After we beytahan the kepanasan, we cabut from the kolam and go jalan2 at the LOST WORLD.

Found it ! Baa..konon..

Naa..ada Giant angsa. Jangan marah :p

Gambar cantik !

Chewa... yook hwa posing dengan hwa :)

We went to makan steak kat a place where Tammy's father always brought her there when she was a kiddie la.. but i dun remember the name of the shop though.

It's a very old shop. Where the interior design is very classical look ler.

The bar area. Classic hor?

Then, we visited a place called Gua Kek Lok Tong.

The entrance of the cave

The gua actually it's like a gerbang. After u enter the gua, u will see this...

Naa... ada kolam. Nice or not? That area very windy 1 lor.. and i like it !

Yook Hwa and a Red Hwa :D

Sang Kura-kura

Ada Lotus jugak ;)

Akhir kata,

Many thanks to Tammy sebab bawak me ke Ipoh buat julung kalinya.

And many thanks to her family oso sebab bagi saya tido kat sana and also belanje me makan (a lot).

Me really really appreciate it :D

Terima Kasut banyak-banyak.

Saya cinta kamu orang.

I want it

I made up my mind,

I'm gonna give my passion and interest a try. I wanna be fair to myself.
I'll do it for a year.. and see how it goes from there.
I decided to choose Experience before $$$.

Many thanks for all the advices and supports, ppl!
I really appreciate it.

So, i'm really looking forward for this.
I wanna be a Broadcasting Journalist !
I will shake the world ! U watch out, ppl !

Will i be happy?

Everything is Over now...
The exam is over.
Studying days is definitely over. I can't say i'm a student anymore.
We even had our farewell dinner already, on the last day of the exam.

Just a short follows up from the previous post,
I got all my work (thesis) printed and handed it over for the hard bound thingy edi.
And i had went to the 2nd time interview at the same company on last Thursday.
They said they will get back to me after a few days though. So, i'm still waiting...

So, in the meanwhile..
i think a lot.
I was thinking about way to much of stuff.

Most of my coursemates decided not to work in Journalism field after this. They are going to try on other fields such as PR, Advertising, Banks and etc.
I bet they can earn more in those fields and would be less running around compared to the job of a journalist.

Suddenly i was thinking about this.
IF i really get the job at Bernama, i will be doing something that i like, things that i did before during my internships. But 1 thing for sure, i will not be able to earn as much as the other professions, or other place.
And the working life there is definitely hectic and tiring. It would be like working almost 7 days a week. That's wat happened tat during my internship.
But i think i enjoy reporting. And i knew that i am not a gifted writer. So, i think producing Tv news is my cup of tea. But i was wondering if this is merely my own perceptions?

I was wondering if it's stupid to get a job with such a low pays and will i be happy with it?
Everyone is working their ass off just for the sake of the money rite ?
And i got my loan to be paid on monthly basis, after this.
Sigh... i really dunno.

Seeing so many people is jumping to another field for the sake to earn more, makes me wonder if i shall join them. But will i be happy then? And issit a gud decision to let go news reporting?

Or shall i get a stable job here in KL or just go back to my hometown? Coz this will allows me to be closer to my family and life is definitely will be calm and steady. But am I ready to go back ? Will i be happy with the working environment there?
I think i wanna learn more here in the big city before going back.

Hell yes, I feel vulnerable this time.

Life is sucks ...sometimes

In just another 2 more days, i'm gonna finish my study. Finally.

Here am i feeling so depressed.
I feel so lost and insecure.

Problems poured in like nobody business.
I wanted to print my thesis, my printer broke down... something wrong with the catridge.
I wanted to finish my revision for this coming paper, but i tot it would be better to settle my thesis 1st.. Damn.
I found out that my driving licence has expired, on the expiry date itself.
I thought i can secure a job, before i finish my study.. so that i will not need to worry about that later. It turned out to be a dissapointment (by the moment).
I am worried about my exam too. CGPA?

I'm sad.
*sobs*